simply april

no more happiness...

2009-10-19T05:34:00.000-07:00

And what am I supposed to do
If I can't get over you
I come to find that you don't feel the same
Cause I'm fallin'
Boy I'm fallin' for you
And I pray your fallin' too
I've been fallin' fallin'
Ever since the moment I laid eyes on you
-- Fallin' by *nsync

kahit alas 12:30 na ng umaga, oo umaga! ngayon ko pa napagtripang maging emo, tangina kasi eh, panibago heart break! hahaha, pero mas okay din to ah, at least di pa ko tuluyang nafall, hahay...

sana kasing dali lang ng paghahanap ng chocolates sa supermarket ang paghanap sa taong pwede mong mahalin, at pwede kang mahalin.

So anung meron? haha! minsan tuloy naawa na ko sa sarili ko, pero minsan naman feeling ko super blessed ako, basta magulo...

dapat nga masaya ako eh, kasi mataas mga grades ko, eh ikaw ba naman ang sabihan ng ... ayoko na i-share, hahaha! basta ganun, hindi na ko bago sa ganito,

pero hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin ako sanay...
pwede ba yun? ang masanay kang maging sawi... awoo!
makatulog na nga lang.

para sa'yo,
tagay pa!
pag lasing ka, saka mo lang ako nakikita.
LOL!

no more happiness...

September 26

2009-10-01T05:10:00.000-07:00

wala kasi akong maisip na title eh,
so eto ako,
sinusubukan kong balikan yung mga nagyari sakin nung sept. 26, oo, yung araw na dumating si ondoy. Yun din kasi ang araw na naganap yung dapat na one day recollection namen.

We were having our lunch around 1pm, before i started eating, i checked my phone. 3 missed calls, 7 messages. The three calls where from my tita, pag check ko ng messages my mom and my tita were both asking if we made it to Pansol or not. So stupid of me, when we arrived kasi i completely forgot to text them. Stupid! I was trying to text my mom to tell her i'm fine, when my tita called,Naka-silent mode kasi yung phone dahil bawal ang cellphone during sessions. sinagot ko agad. of course napagalitan muna ako and then she asked bakit pa daw tumuloy, sabi ko medyo mahina pa kasi yung ulan nung umaga, 8am kami umalis ng school. She then told me to know kung makakauwi ba kami, sinabi ko yung sinabi ng lector namen, tatapusin ng maaga yung session para makauwi agad kami, yung 7pm na uwi ay magiging 4pm na daw. At sinabihan din ako ng tita ko na magtext na kay mama, nag text naman ako agad, my sister even replied that my mom was washing clothes pa. I took a deep breath and tinuloy ang pagkain ng lunch.

During lunch, we also had the group sharing, so lucky kasi more than half of my groupmates ay classmates ko din, ^_^ sharing tungkol sa family and sa sarili. Nagkaroon din ako ng pagkakataon para makapag-confess.
Eye and heart opener yung recollection. Grade 6 pa ata ako nung huli akong nakaranas ng reco. Marami akong natutunan at nalaman, magandang experience din siya, sana every year meron nun. hehe

So, after ng masayang session, kahit super obvious na bumabagyo sa labas at nawalan pa ng kuryente.
Nagmass din kami after the session, sabi nila, after mass daw, uwian na. Wala pang 4pm ng mag-start yung mass. Before the mass ended, or while we were singing, nakaramdam na ko ng bad news.
At ayun na nga ang bad news, Bro. Norman, our lector told us that the school admin advised us to stay kasi mataas na daw ang tubig sa daan. Even the students from Molino campus na pinauwi na after lunch ay hindi na rin nakauwi dahil na stranded sila sa daan and came back. Bago pa man sabihin ni Prof. Motol na tawagan na namin ang mga parents namen nasa labas na ako at tinawagan ko si mama. When my mom answered the phone, she sounded nervous. As in ninerbyos na rin ako sa boses ng mom ko, bago pa ko magpanic at umiyak kinuha na ng sister ko yung phone, she laughed at sinabi saken na okay naman sila, sabay sabing "nilalamig lang kami sa hanggang tuhod na dito sa kwarto yung tubig." i was like 0_o wtf?! alam ko bumabaha sa lugar namen pero never umabot sa kwarto namen yun, to think, signal number one pa lang naman. Tapos dumating si Sir Motol and asked me to come inside the room again aksi may announcement pa daw. Sa taranta ko, pinatay ko agad yung phone and went inside.

Hindi ko na naalala yung iba pang sinabi ng lector, and pagtapos nun, tumawag agad si mama. Okay naman na daw sila, basta daw hindi na bumaha ng mataas.
After that, we were assigned sa rooms na tutulugan namen.
Masaya naman ang overnight sa odc kahit almost 2am na gising pa yung iba.
Yung mga classmates kong guys, hindi pa makatulog agad dahil ang unang makatulog sa room nila, magigising na may toothpaste sa mukha, hehe!.
Buti na lang sa room namen walang ganun, meron nga lang mga whoever na nagbed to bed para lang magtanong kung meron kang yosi. Pssh!

6:30 am na ng magising ako, pero obvious na kulang pa sa tulog. 7am ang supposed to be breakfast namen, pag gising ko, toothbrush at ayos na ng gamit. Voila, haha! inaamin ko naman na wala kaming ligo nun, walang choice eh, XD

Pag labas namen ng dorm! wooh! isang mainit na araw ang sumalubong samen, at finally, nakita rin namin ang magandang view! Sayang nga lang, pauwi na kami nun.
Syempre hindi namin pinalagpas ang moment para makapagpapicture, kahit umaambon na ulit.
We had breakfast, and after nun, nasa bus na kame pauwi. Nakita pa namin yung maputik na daan at kulay chocolate na baha.
Yung byahe pauwi, tahimik, haha! nadrain na ata lahat ng energy namen,
pero masaya pa rin. ^_^
Pag uwi ko, saka ko lang narealize kung ganu kagrabe yung situation ng family ko, parang naguilty tuloy ako...
But atleast they are okay, compared to what we see on tv...
Super thankful ako.
Lastly, my prayers to everyone who are in need of help and to those who are giving out a part of hemsleves to help.

uhm....untitled??

2009-09-11T03:52:00.000-07:00

nakakainis isipin na minsan, kapag ang isang tao, na hindi mo pa naman ganun kakilala, ay walang kare-reaction sa mga pinaggagagawa mo ay affected ka pa rin.

Ang meron lang naman kayo ay isang gabi, mga 45 minutes lang na nakasandal ka sa kanya habang hindi na kinaya ng katawan mo yung alcohol na na-consume mo. Syempre, alam nyang may amats ka kaya naipahiram nya saglit ang balikat nya. Pero bago pa yun, tumawa ka habang sumusuka na sya at ikaw, tinawanan ka nya nung humingi ka ng kape na isinuka mo rin naman. Tapos nagmoment ka, hindi nya naintindihan, at hindi mo rin naman naintindihan ang mga sinabi mo, ang alam mo lang, katabi mo sya. Nginitian ka, at tinanong kung kaya mo pa, tumango ka na lang kasi iniisip mo na baka iba na ang amoy ng hininga mo.

Pagkatapos nun, nagsimula na ang communication nyo. Masaya ka kasi sya pa unang nag-reach out. Pero nalaman mo, isang group message lang pala yon, pero dedma ka lang, basta alam mo, kinakausap ka na nya. Pero alam mo, at alam nya na hindi pareho ang feelings. LOL-yan,ganyan lagi ang reaction kapag pinapaalam na sa'yo yung truth. truth hurts, but it set you free.

Mahirap lang isipin, haha! At kapag tinatanong ka, "Crush mo lang ba talaga?" ang lagi mong sagot, "Oo naman," at kapag hindi naniwala, palagi mong ine-explain na, "Pano ko naman mamahalin ang isang tao na hindi ko pa masyadong kilala, hindi ko pa nga nakakausap ng matino yun eh,"
Sinong niloko mo? lolo mo?
pagkatapos nito, matutulog ka na lang, hindi naman nya mababasa ito eh, so wala ng problema.

Ang problema mo na lang, bukas pag gising mo, walang pagbabago, ganun pa rin,
titingin ka, tapos aasa, tapos maiinis, tapos... balik ulit sa umpisa.

weekend overview, (churvaler blog)

2009-08-07T23:26:00.000-07:00

so maybe ito na nga yun,
syempre lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon eh hindi na bago, pero hindi rin tulad ng dati. Parang alam ko lang yung mga daan na papunta pero ibang daanan na ung na-take ko, gets?
haha! so ayun, let's start with new environment, hindi ko alam kung nakapag-blog na ba ako ng tungkol sa school ko, (titingin sa mga previous posts...)
ayun, at nabasa ko ulet yung pagiging bitter ko sa programming, pero maayos na buhay ko dun, madami na akong natutunan, at alam ko na kung pano gawin yung mahiwagang space. Bwahaha!
nakwento ko na pala yung ibang mga prof ko,
ngayon naman ikekwento ko yung school grounds, haha! medyo malawak pala ang perps, mas malaki sya sa inaasahan ko, pero di kasing lawak nung dati kong school na may 3 football field,(echos lang!) pero napansin ko rin na sa lahat ng building dun, yung building ng college ko ang pinaka-matanda at pinaka-napagiwanan ng panahon, in terms of the building ha. At contrasting sya, kasi puro hi-tech naman ang laman ng building namen, aside dun sa mga tangible aircon.
isa lang ang tambayan namin ng mga kasama ko laging gurls dun. ang mahiwagang jolly perps kung saan palaging iced tea or french fries lang ang kinakain namen. Malamig at maluwag kasi dun, at hindi hassle. Masaya din kasi maraming puno, (at higad) minsan nga ay mapagtripan kong tumambay dun sa mga puno na yun...hehe
ngayon naman usapang classmates tayo, yung mga classmates ko ngayon, parang IV-prudence lang din nung highschool, halo-halo! hindi ko na iguro kelangan isa-isahin pa sila diba? syempre yung mga kasam ko laging gurls may tawagan na kame, meron na kong, philos, kabet, neng, at cookies, haha! korny ng mga tawagan noh, pero masaya kami jan,
tapos kung dun sa nauna kong post eh wala akong kinakatuwaan na klasmate, ngayon, meron na! si cinnamon, brownies at cupcake, fyi lahat yan ay given nickname ko sa kanila para hindi masyadong obvious, pero si cinnamon medyo aware na lahat ng tao na sya nga si cinnamon, lol!
natutuwa rin akong malaman na after ilang years eh natuto na naman akong,magselos, magalit, mainis, matuwa, matawa ng bongga, magtext hanggang 1:30 am, yung mga ginagawa ng normal na estudyante lalo na pag hapon ang klase mo, hehe,
at hindi ko pa pala nabanggit na minsan na akong sumayaw sa isang event sa school, oo sayaw! to the tune of mainit, inaabangan ko pa kung kelan ipo-post ng mabait kong pinsan yung video, at ipo-post ko dito ASAP. Malakas ang loob kong ipost yun dahil nasa likod naman ako at bahagya mo lang masisilayan ang paghataw ko, nyahaha! pero nawindang ako sa nabalitaan ko na inilista daw kame ng prof ko para maging part ng cheering squad ng college namin, hindi ko alam kung totoo yun, pero malalaman ko bukas, linggo!
nasabo ko na ba na seven days a week ako pumapasok? parang nasabi ko na ata, pero inulit ko para emphasis na wala akong pahinga at wala akong panahon gumimik, gala mode pwede pa, pero medyo hassle pa rin dahil hapon ang uwian ko, kung mag-gala man ako, imposibleng hindi ako gagabihin, diba? buti na lang hindi ako sabik sa gala, wehehe!

at dito nagtatapos ang entry ko ngayong araw, medyo busy ako sa school pero susubukan kong mapost at least once evry week, hahays...
follow me on twitter pala, lol!

total weirdness!

2009-02-08T21:35:00.000-08:00

hahaha, teka, natatawa kasi ako ngayon eh, nagtatry kasi akong magsearch sa internet about Jane Austen novels, hindi ko alam pero baka one of these days, dahil sobrang bored ako sa buhay ko, e baka makita nyo nga ako na nagbabasa ng mga novel nya, haha! pero hindi kasi yun ang dahilang kung bakit natatawa or natutuwa ako eh! Syempre aside from paghahanap kay Jane Austen e may mga ibang bagay pa akong pinagkakaabalahan. Tapos natapilok ako, in english, i stumble(hahaha) ok tagalog tayo! eh kasi ayun, e di natapilok na nga ako, tapos may mga nakita ako, uyYy... haha, tapos syempre tinignan ko kasi curious ako, and then it hit me! (tinamaan?!) ahm...basta pagkatapos kong tignan, natawa ako, tapos napa-smile, tapos mapaisip... iba na pala yung dati sa ngayon..(duh!) eh kasi naman dati hindi ko pansin, dati bitter pa ako, dati yun! e ngayon, parang natutuwa pa ako, masaya kasi eh, hahahaha! tapos weird friends pa! weird talaga! basta masaya!

hindi na nga ako magbibigay ng further info, baka lalo lang kayong maweirduhan saken, basta eto alam ko: wala na! hihihi, eto clue para masaya, lahat ng word na "siya" tinanggal ko, hahaha, bahala na ikaw magisip ah, kung textmate tayo, text mo ko baka maikwento ko pa sa'yo. yun ay kung close tayo, hahaha! =D

Twilight whatevers...

2008-11-23T17:29:00.000-08:00

Wala kasi akong magawa kaya heto ang topic na alam ko pagkakainteresan. Whatevers ko lang to kaya walang kokontra.
aaminin ko, isa ako sa mga taong nag-aabang sa pagpapalabas ng Twilight movie,hehe. Una kong nakita yung movie poster nya at nakilala ko agad si cedric diggory, tapos may tagline pa na "the next bestseller after Harry Potter", syempre kuryosa(curious) ang lola mo, kaya nagsearch ako sa net. Syempre marami akong nalaman at nagulat ako na marami na din pala ang nakabasa nito sa forum na sinalihan ko. Nung una akala ko pang-mayaman book na naman ito, yung tipong can't afford ng isang miyembro ng middle class o lower. Tapos ganun pala yung presyo, mas mahal lang ng bahagya sa mga nobela ni Nicholas Sparks. Hindi ko rin alam kung anung meron sa kwento nya, vampire love story? Sa totoo lang hindi ako mahilig sa mga ganitong klase ng novel kaya wala sa plano ko ang bumili nito. Pero nakakatuwa lang dahil minsan naghanap ako ng ebook ng twilight. Susubukan kong basahin at pag nahook ako saka ko na bibilhin yung libro, natutuwa rin ako dahil nagkalat na sa mga text messages ang mga linya sa libro..."so the lion fell inlove with the lamb..." and so on...Syempre kung araw araw mo maeexperience ang ganitong mga bagay lalo kang masasabik kung anu ba talaga ang meron sa Twilight. Isa pa, isa ako sa mga humahanga kay Robert Pattinson, Harry Potter days pa lang(kaya inggit ako kay cho chang nung mga panahon na yun at ngayon hindi na hehe). Ngayon alam na rin na gagawin nila ang sequel ng Twilight na hindi ko alam ang sequence(Breaking dawn, Midnight sun, Eclipse at....hindi ko na alam). At para sa mga tumitili para kay edward cullen o kay rob pattinson, mga nagcurse kay Kristen Stewart at nainggit kay Bella Swan...sa wednesday na ang araw nyo,hehe!

it's just one day...

2008-11-20T23:04:00.000-08:00

i just want to share what happened last wednesday. My Lolo and I went to sm bacoor, we meet up with my cousins whom i haven't seen in a really looong time,hehe. Mimi, the youngest one got sick last week and she has to stay in the hospital for almost one week. May dengue pala siya, buti na lang naagapan. This mall trip was just what my lolo had promised them, and of course, super namiss din sila ng lolo ko. For the record, they are my youngest cousins na sa bulacan nakatira.So there we are at the mall. First stop, Jolibee, dun na kami nagtanghalian and to my surprise,(as in shocked ako ng makita ko siya) yung crew na nagassist was my classmate when i was in grade 6. and take note, he is my uber crush back then.ihh! hahaha! super smile ako buti na lang hindi napansin ni lolo,hehe, hanggang "hi" lang ang nasabi ko sakanya since hindi siya pwede magtagal dun sa table namen. aww... but he changed a lot and super tangkad.napagiwanan ako!2nd stop. tom's world, syempre super play kame dun, isa lang naman ang pinagtuunan namen ng pansin dun, yung pwede ka manalo ng sangkaterbang tickets para ipalit ng ibang items, hehe, at pagkatapos nun, shopping galore naman sila, ako lang naman ang tagatingin kung panget o maganda yung mga napili nilang damit. At dahil na rin sa pamimilit nila, napilitan akong bumili ng isang shirt sa kids section, hahaha! we had so much fun, sana lang hindi kami napagod agad, after nun sa greenwhich na kami nagmerienda at naghiwalay na kami sa jeep.hay...how i wish we had one whole day... i'll share the pictures pag naupload ko na, tinatamad pa ako sa ngayon eh... =)

i am back!

2008-11-10T03:50:00.000-08:00

nothing much, i added plurk on this site para wala lang? hehe, trying to busy myself with randon things, and doing some crazy stuff! haha, wanna guess?

ScrapBlog

2008-10-25T16:49:00.000-07:00

recently, i've indulge(parang pagkain lang ah) myself itno digital scrap booking, since i love doing scrapbooks and short budget ako ngayon i tried it online. Here's a sample of my work, one day with my friends, http://s212.photobucket.com/albums/cc65/april_fairy/?action=view¤t=capturedmemories_Page_0.jpg" target="_blank">http://i212.photobucket.com/albums/cc65/april_fairy/capturedmemories_Page_0.jpg" border="0" alt="scrapblog">

i'll be doing much as soon as my bes carla's bday pictures gets uploaded. yun lang. =)

i am back! (random things)

2008-09-23T23:38:00.000-07:00

i can't believe it pero i saw someone i know sa isa sa mga forums na member ako.i know her, not really know, kasi she's a friend of a friend of a friend,but geez! ang weird ko, why bother? she doesn't even know me...
ok forget her, hmm...can't say much kasi i'm still stuck at my humble abode,but i'm loving it, get to know peole around me, but i'll be back to school this coming sem, new course, new school, new life! another chance so I don't want to waste it.

Weird things: people from my past are coming back, alam mo yun, yung mga classmates mo nung elementary nagkaroon bigla kami ng communication eh, the next thing i know, we already have a plan of meeting up by end of october. I just hope hindi magkasabay ang reunion ng elementary classmates ko sa bonding gimik namin ng mga kaibigan ko ngayon, kung nagkataon...ay naku!

so now, ahm what? wala na akong masabi eh, btw, i'm busy pala helping my lolo sa ice cream house so everyday ganito ang schedule ko,9am-wake up time(hahaha!super tanghali na noh?!)12nn-probably eating brunch,hehe1pm onwards-wala akong ginagawang useful during these times kaya kung anu lang mapagtripan ko, dun ako,=)5pm onwards-time for ice cream counting! (want to know??)by 8pm tapos na yan, depende sa oras ng uwi ng mga vendor, after that watch na lang ako ng tv, or helping my mom sa pagluluto ng leche flan,=)by 11:30 oras na para matulog kasi tapos na ung one mom & 3 dads, so that's one whole day for me, sounds boring????hahaha, yan ang reason ko why i can't go out pag gabi, kasi mas busy ako sa gabi, kaya mga friends kung gusto nyo akong makasama sa mga gimikan naten sana umaga na lang, (sige bes, malate tayo ng 9AM!) hehe, i love you bes!

FINALLY! (a short update)

2008-09-21T19:10:00.000-07:00

naayos na rin ang aming computer, sa wakas! kaya ngayon i have plans of overhauling my blog, can't say much kasi busy pa rin kahit nasa bahay lang, will update longer next time... =)

i am still here...

2008-07-21T23:01:00.000-07:00

kamusta kayong lahat! hehe, after 100 years nakapagupdate din ako. Sira kasi yung computer sa bahay kaya eto sa isang computer shop ako nagtatype ng mga thoughts ko, kahit medyo maingay keri lang. hahaha, marai akong namiss since nasa bahay lang ako palagi, siguro ayoko ng pahabain kaya ang sasabihin ko ay, namiss ko ang mabuhay kasama ang mga taong mahalaga sa aken.

What Happened???

2008-06-25T22:59:00.000-07:00

it's been awhile since i last posted something, hindi naman ako

bombarded with school work since i do not have a school life YET.
and because nasa bakasyong engrande ako i became more aware of the

happenings sa paligid ko, socially aware? siguro ganun na nga...

THE DEBUT
my last post was a personal one involving people who are close to my

heart, my friends. Hindi pa totally ayos but i was hoping na sa ganun na

rin mapunta since everyone(?) is willing to sort things out, i just hope

emotions wouldn't run that high again. Since something came back, hehe,

yup, something is back and i am not expecting IT to be back kasi i am

happy na with the way i am living my life. Aysus! but in time it'll be over i

just hope na hindi magtagal...
Last Sunday ay debut ng kaibigan kong si jomel. And yeah it was the

same day na binagyo tayo ni "Frank" na hindi naman natin inaasahan

beacause it was Forecasted that the typhoon wouldn't do a land fall, but it

did, natuloy pa rin ang party nya but i was not able to go, kasi hindi

pumayag ang mama ko, understandable yup, but iwas really dying to go!

really! kasi Jomel is the youngest sa barkada and she's the last one to

celebrate debut, wish nya na makumpleto kami but hindi nangyari, kanina

as i was looking at the pictures, naiiyak ako, hahaha, emotional ba?
ayun... hay... Happy birthday jomel! love you!

FAMILY FROM HAWAII
My tito Jun and his family ay nagbakasyon dito sa Pinas. Galing sila ng

Hawaii, sa Pangasinan sila nagstay but they decided na maggala sa

Manila para na rin makita si mama,coz we never got the chance to go

home sa Pangasinan dahil sa school ng mga kapatid ko, and yung tita

and ibang mga pinsan ko sa Sta.ana since all 3 of them are working na.

We went to Mall of Asia at dun nagikot-ikot, we ate at around 8pm na kasi

nagcheck in pa sa Hotel yung family ng tito ko. Medyo awkward moment

yun kasi both my cousins are Inglisero talaga at pareho pang lalaki so it

was really hard to find something to talk about at dun na sila lumaki. After

kumain nagikot ulit kame pero magsasara na yung mall, 10pm, nagenjoy

naman kami kahit papano kasi nung uwian na, ayoko pa umuwi, hehe, it

was fun pero nagkaroon ng plano na magpunta sa Manila Ocean park the

next day, pero bumagyo naman, hay...

ASIAN MADNESS(?)
Kahapon naman nabalitaan ko na si Wu Chun, yup, yung cute guy sa

Hana Kima original at Romantic Princess, ay pupunta sa Manila on July

12-14, i think totoo yun at hindi gawa-gawa lang kasi he posted his Asian

Tour sa blog nya, hehe, patay na patay kaya sakanya yung youngest

sister ko, pati tuloy ako nahawa na. Cute naman siya infairness, hahaha,
and does anybody know yung name ng cute guy sa Lovers, si christian? I

was trying to search for him online pero wa ako makita, hehe, kyut siya

eh, anu be?

"FRANK"
This is a MORE serious part of my post, I hope anyone who reads this

would offer a simple prayer to those lives taken by the sunken ship

Princess of the Stars.Pray for the souls and for the family who are hoping

to find their relatives, buhay man o patay na. It gives me shivers just

watching the news and seeing the families hoping to find their loved ones.

Not just them but para na rin dun sa mga naapektuhan ng bagyo, to give

them strength to stand and start again...

dito na lang ako...

2008-06-10T21:25:00.000-07:00

DISCLAIMER:the post which you are about to read is nothing but reservations
for those people who are close to my heart, bahala ka na lang
kung gusto mo pa rin basahin kahit na it does not include you...

tutal nagdadrama din naman sila eh sasabayan ko na rin,dito ako maglalabas ng loob since ayoko sa bulletin post ng
friendster dahil masyadong bulgar, isa pa, binabasa din yun ng
mga taong hindi naman concerned, hahaha...

alam nyo, i really don't need those reservations at this time kasi,
sa dami ng problema ko sa sarili ko palagay ko konti na lang
bibitiw na ako, pero dahil inumpisahan nyo, sige ilabas nyo na
lahat ng gusto nyong sabihin para magkaalamanan na,

una sa lahat pag nakakasama ko kayo hindi pwedeng hindi ako
na-a-out of place, oo! OP, kahit kaibigan ko kayo, op ako, kasi
iniisip nyo si ganito o si ganyan lang ang kaclose ko, define
"close" nga? kasi feeling ko at ramdam ko na wala talaga eh,
araw-araw nga ako nagpapasalamt kasi kahit papano may
natatakbuhan ako, pero hanggang dun na lang ata yun...

pangalawa, ewan ko kung special ako sa kahit na sino sa inyo, pero hindi ko hinihingi yun, ang akin lang, sana wag nyo isipin na "ESPIYA" ako ng iba NATENG kaibigan kasi hindi naman, naiinis nga ako kasi kahit may mga alam ako walang akong mgawa kasi ayoko makilam dahil baka isipin nyo na kumakampi ako, yung totoo lang i feel so hopeless kasi wala akong magawa, alam nyo
naman na isa na akong MALAKING DISAPPOINTMENT bilang
isang anak, estudyante at nakatatandang kapatid, pero parang
hanggang sa pagiging isang kaibigan FAILURE pa rin ako. ANG
SAKLAP NAMAN NG BUHAY KO! hahaha...

ayun gusto ko lang malaman nyo na KAIBIGAN ko pa rin kayong
lahat kahit na you guys are not in good terms. ISA LANG SANA
ANG HIHILINGIN KO, sana kung kausap nyo ako, wag nyo
sasabihan ng masama ang isa't -isa kasi nasasaktan ako,
promise! yun lang, sana kahit yun lang mapagbigyan nyo na ako,

ANNE: ikaw? minsan na lang din kita makakwentuhan pero it
means a lot
to me ha! wag ka sana magbago, sana gumanda ka
pa lalo, hehe, basta dito
dito lang tayo ah, =p

JOMEL: ayun, sorry sa mga atraso ko sa'yo ah, andito pa rin
naman
ako for you basta dito lang ako, saka pupunta pa rin ako
sa debut mo, i love
you!

LESTER: sana take note of my munting hiling ha? yun lang
naman eh,
i love you!

JHANE: ayun, kung anu man yung napagusapan naten sa text
nung
nakaraan sana hindi mo dibdibin yun, naadadrama lang
naman ako kasi
nahihirapan na ako, salamat sa mga quotes! i
love you!

EMIE: eto, kahit malayo ka sa akin at once in a blue moon na
lang
tayo magusap best friend pa rin kita, ok? i love you!

JOANE: ayun, sige tawa ka lang jan kasi you makoe me laugh
kahit
ayoko tumawa, hahahaha, basata sana someday mgatiwala
ka naman sa akin,
oki?! i love you!

JAJA: sayo naman, gusto ko magpasalamat kasi kahit papano
nagrereach out ka na, sorry kasi talagang minsan wront timing
mga text
mo, pero naapreciate ko pa rin yun, sana someday,
friends na ulit tayo, ;p

JAIME: wala akong masyadong masabi except salamat ha, kasi
alam ko
ok na tayo, haha, i love you!

CARLA: marami ka ng nagawa saken at hindi mo alam kung gaano ako
nagpapasalamat dahil dun, hindi ko na nga alam kung i am really worth of your
friendship kasi puro problema na lang ang binibigay ko sa'yo, sana hindi ka
galit nung nasagot kita dati sa text, sana ok na tayo, miss na kita, hay... i
love you!

Whatever...

2008-06-07T16:07:00.000-07:00

sa kanya na lahat ng yan but he will never become half of what R*** have been,

churvaler...randomness...

2008-06-02T23:27:00.000-07:00

marami akong gustong ikwento pero pag nagtatype na ako, parang lumilipad lahat ng ideas ko, hahahaha.
i don't really know what to type so ganito na lang gagawin ko:

1. disappointed ako kasi naevict si rona, (plastic at oa na pala ang tawag sa PAGPAPAKATOTOO, kapag ang isang tao ba ay may mahabang pasensya na hindi katulad mo eh plastic na sya? kapag ang tao ba ay "too good to be true" ah hindi na totoo? malamang first time nya nakakilala ng gaung tao kaya sya ganun, tamaan! hehe)hindi na nga ako nanood nun eh, lovers na lang,haha! =p

2. 3 araw ng nagpaparactice ng sayaw para sa kutilyon ni bestfriend jomel, sya na kasi ang huling mage-18 sa barkada kaya all out ang support ko sa kanya, (ewan ko lang yung iba! tsuk!)

3. nakapanood ako ng xxx(documentary sa abs-cbn) at imbestigador sa gma7, maganda topic nila, nung pinapanood ko yung mga bata parang may malaking lump sa lalamunan ko, panay ang lunok ko at pagtulo ng luha, sinong tao ba ang hindi maiiyak sa mga pinagdaanan nila? yung 6 years old na girl ginagamit sa cybersex business ng isang matandang babae na walang pinagkatandaan (feel nyo ang galit ko?!) at yung isang 4 years old na batang lalaki ng puro sugat sa katawan at nakagapos sa bubong nila, pero yung 2 kapatid nya na babae nakakapaglaro, sya naiwan sa bahay na nakatali at may nakapatong pang bigas sa likod, take note parang kalahating kaban pa yung bigas! Nung nirescue na yung bata, ramdam mo yung takot nya, pero mukhang hindi sya masaya na nailigtas sya, mas ginusto pa rin ng bata na sumama sa nanay at tatay nya. Baket? sabi nung taga-DSWD iniisip ng bata na natural lang na itrato sya ng ganun ng mga magulang nya, in short, nasanay na sya dahil nga naman yun ang pamilya nya! Good Lord! Minsan mapapaisip ka na lang, bakit may mga tao na magaanak tapos hindi naman nila kayang gampanan ang mga resposibilidad at obligasyon bilang isang magulang. *sigh*

ayan lang ang mga naisip kong ishare ngayon, until next time!

namiss ko ito!

2008-05-17T00:38:00.000-07:00

it's been weeks since i last wrote an entry for this blog.Kasi dun ako nagupdate sa new site ko, As i have mentioned in my last entry I was actually working on my new site, i got hosted. But..hays...after a few weeks of trying to fix evrything wala pa rin, medyo nahirapan din ako sa pagaayos ng site na yun since i was really new to php and everything, i never gave up but the computer did! The pc was not functioning well for the last 2 weeks and some of the files that i need for the site ay nawala na, i don't know why... Ngayon alam ko na, dapt laging may bacj-up ang files! grr..

Now, i am thinking of giving up the hosted site and magsettle na lang dito sa blogger. I love blogger naman, and it is easier for me, so ayun... I will be telling ms. kist about my decision later. It's sad to let go of the site pero i don't want to waste her bandwidth, someone else deserves it.
And thanks to all who dropped by recently, i don't know if i was able to link everyone up, but if i missed someone, my apologies. Drop me a message if i missed your shout. hahaha...kisses!

Be aware!

2008-04-23T05:21:00.000-07:00

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It's been weeks since i last posted something here. I am still constructing my new site and i will be updating you as soon as it is done.
Anyways, i just watched An Inconvinient Truth on HBO, and i was really moved by the said documentary. Join the plead, be aware, and do watch it! or simply visit http://www.climatecrisis.net/ for more info.
Now is the time to act!

Last Chance

2008-04-11T23:18:00.000-07:00

i am not in the mood to write a long entry though my hands want to, (lol!)i heard this song last night, kahit luma na siya kasi it really fits what feeling i have right now. uy...naintriga siya! haha, basta magkekwento ako pag ok na, hehe...enjoy!

Last Chance

his is my last dance with you

This is my only chance to do

all I can do

To let you know that what I feel for you is real

This is the last chance for us

This is the moment that I just cannot let end

Before I know that theres a chance were more than friends

So don`t let go, don`t let go

Make it last all night

This is my last chance to make you mine
I kept my feelings so deep

I kept my dreams of you and me somewhere inside

Although I prayed that you would see it in my eyes

But this is my last chance to say

Whats in my heart before you stay out of my life

And then you'll understand the way I feel inside
So hold me close cause it feels so right

This is my last chance to make you mine

Make this dream reality

So close and yet so far

Gotta find a way into your heart

Gotta speak my mind

Gotta open up to you this time

I cant let you slip away tonight

This is my last dance with you

This is my only chance to do all I can do

To let you know that what I feel for you is so real

So don`t let go

Just make it last all night long

This is my last chance to make you mine, yeah

To make you mine

Happy birthday to me...

2008-04-05T01:24:00.000-07:00

hay...
wala akong masyadong entry for today,
my birthday will be tomorrow,
i am turning 19...
yikes!
19 na ako,
hahaha!
di ako makapaniwala,
ang tanda ko na...huhu! =(
wala namang masyadong plano para bukas,
magluluto lang na konti,
tapos yun na...
hay...
napapaisip pa rin ako,
19 na talaga ako...
19...

so happy!

2008-03-30T18:48:00.000-07:00

so happy! Last saturday was a day for me, kahit na nagkagulo ng konti before the said outing ng barkada, natuloy pa rin. Kahit nangalahati ang sumama, natuloy pa rin. Naging masaya naman ang outing, kahit humabol lang ako nung hapon na kasi sinamahan ko pa ang lolo ko na magpacheck-up sa doctor.

here's a few pics, kahit natatawa ako nung una ko syang makita! =)

eto yung facade ng resort, ok naman siya kahit medyo maliit lang,

pasensya na kung saan saan ako nakatingin,haha, panu kasi, dalawa yung kumukuha ng picture,

natawa ako sa pic na ito, kasi sabi nila parang birthday ko daw, kasi ako lagi yung nasa gitna,
ang mga bes ko, left to right, jaime, jomel, (ako) joanne, and alvin,

yan naman si lester, (ang isa ring adik sa piktyuran yan!)

ang kyut ni joanne dito,
(parang bato lang!) lol,

ang masyadong pa-cute na version ni april! lol,

wala akong masabi sa pic na ito, tumawa na lang tayo! hahaha, =)

so ayan! haha,yan lang muna ang mga pwede kong maishare sa inyo,
i'll update as soon as may bago na ulit,
=)

Sari sari (part 4)

2008-03-25T00:16:00.000-07:00

hay i nominated myself for the 2008 teen blog awards though i just started blogging, proud lang ako sa blog ko kasi ako mismo ang gumawa, =) I just read the criteria and seems to me na papasa naman ang blog ko, haha,(ang kapal!). Proud lang talaga ako!

So, it's pretty hot, i guess, haha, kasi summer na, i just turned off the tv since tapos na yung pinapanood ko. I was watching the PBB Teen live stream sa Studio 23. I don't know if it is live, kasi they were eating breakfast eh 1pm na, i guess delayed telecast. hehe, To tell you the truth i am watching it because i was amazed that a physically disabled teen got in. I am talking about Priscilla, she's 17, i don't know if she is totally deaf but super amazed ako that she can read lips! Sa Mission Impossible 3 ko unang nakita yun eh, namangha ako as in! Though nakita ko na nahirapan sya nung una. Still, she is a lucky girl! she get to see big brother's lips, wow! (inggit mode!)

Yun ngayon, me and my barkada are having a little problem on where we are going for our summer get-together! ahh!
I was actually chosen to check out certain resorts here in Cavite(since i am the only one near). I gave them 3 choices and then they meet up and agreed to this one resort na malapit lang, since most of us are not mayaman,(hehe) and now! They are suggesting other resorts which are more costly! hay.... i hope this goes well...sana okaey na!

hay...*sigh*
*sigh*
*sigh*

Sari-sari (part 3)

2008-03-24T02:30:00.000-07:00

Happy Easter!

I have a lot to blog about after the past Holy Week. It made me realize things,think about everything. Taglish na lang ha? kasi mainit tapos lalong sasakit ulo ko. So here goes...
first stop(my online community)it's been a week since i last visited the site, medyo nagulat lang sa mga nangyari, though hindi naman ako directly affected, the peolpe involved are ka-close ko, hindi ako masyadong aktib dun kasi medyo nahihiya pa ako. I don't want to give them the wrong impression about me, kaya super silent reader, pakoment-koment, pm, daan sa blog nila, ganun, that's the reason why i changed my UN dun, so, start tayo ng bagong buhay! Happy Easter! =)

second stop(my family)
since walang masyadong magawa during the holy week, nagstart ang bonding session ko with my family nung wednesday na. My motherhood(tawag ko kay mama in english) ay may business na leche flan, gumagawa kami nun,tapos binebenta sa palengke by other tinderas. Ayun, so after lunch, it was a little too early para magluto ng flan, kasi usually mga 10pm kami natatapos magluto ng flan para pag dinala sya sa palengke ng 2 am fresh pa,(ayan andami nyo nang alam ;p) So gumawa lang kami ng mga kapatid ko nung kahon na pinaglalagyan nung flan. Then ayun, nagtrip kami ni kuya na magmovie marathon, pero dahil wala kaming mapagtripang movie, napagdiskatahan namen yung House MD. season one lang. nung una ayaw ng mga sisters ko, pero maya-maya panay na tanong nila ng how's and why's, pati si lolo nanood na din! ^0^ haha, it was super fun kasi diba ang kulet ni house! the next day season two naman ang binanatan namin! hahaha, ok tama na, napanood din namin yung Step Up 2 the streets! ang ganda! wahahaa! After namin manood, nakita namin si tito(ninong) na sumasayaw na parang robot! at kaming lahat ay na-LSS sa kantang Low! =p

third stop(ang mga nangyari kahapon...)
Ayun, nung Holy Monday kasi nagbalak kami ng mga bes ko na magpunta dun sa isang resort na choice namen para sa outing nga barkada, medyo malayo pero ok naman, maganda sya, kaya lang, 5'6 lang yung pinakamalalim nyang pool, it was fine for me, kasi hindi naman ako marunong lumangoy, at dun nagsimulang masira ang araw ko, one of my bes kasi wants a pool na malulunod sya! i told him kung gusto nya lulunurin ko na lang sya, and then ngayon he said baka hindi na daw sya makasama kasi aalis daw sila, i said libre ko na lang sya, at yun, sabi nya wag na daw, enjoy na lang kami, alam mo yung inis ko nun! kasi there i was trying to find us a palce for our outing, kung anu-anung resort na tinawagan at pinagtanungan ko, yung suggestion nya naman na resort ay mahal na, tapos malayo pa, we are aiming na makasama lahat kasi hindi naman lahat mayaman, at kung pwede lang maglibre ginawa na namin, kaso pare-pareho kaming nagipit,(mahirap kaya ang buhay ngayon!)ayan, ayoko na, baka mbasa nya ito, all I ask is a little consideration para sa iba, once a year na nga lang kami mabuo may ganun pa, kahit ganun bes, mahal pa rin kita! sanay na ko sa kaartehan nyo, sana sanay na rin kayo sa madalas kong reservations sa inyo.! =)

sabi sa inyo sari- sari talaga ang blog entry na ito eh!
wah, it's super hot! feel na feel ko! haha, ;)

not in the mood,

2008-03-20T20:34:00.000-07:00

currently,
not in the mood for posting,
though i have a lot going on my mind,
i'll be back after easter Sunday...

hays.....

Tagged!

2008-03-13T20:21:00.000-07:00

First Tag! this will be my first tag experience(haha) since i started blogging, anyways, here it goes, ;)
Rule #1 Copy all the links below and replace a single link under the appropriate alphabet. If your domain name, or even the title of your blog, starts with an “A”, you’d replace the link under that alphabet and put the replaced link at the bottom. Also, don’t forget to credit the tagger, or where you got the list from, at the end of the list with a full URL of the post so that a pingback gets generated.
1. A. averytulip.blogspot.com
2. B. bloggingcents.com
3. C. caffeine-overload.com
4. D. delusionsofgrandeur.org
5. E. ericchan1.blogspot.com
6. F. forumfinder.net
7. G. gothic-peach.net
8. H. happykeg.com
9. I. ipentimento.com
10. J. julianarw.blogspot.com
11. K. kabalyero.com
12. L. lifeislikethat.net
13. M. meili.rebelations.net
14. N. nyumix.blogspot.com
15. O. originalmx5.net
16. P. patrickdevivo.com
17. Q. qweddings.com
18. R. ruangsudut.blogspot.com
19. S. shirleysdelight.com
20. T. thinking-outloud.com
21. U. utopiastaging.blogspot.com
22. V. valmg.com
23. W. wickedbabylon.com
24. X. xaviermedia.com
25. Y. yimto.com
26. Z. zbudapest.com
Replaced link: http://acowboyswife.com/
Previous tagger: http://meili.rebelations.net/
Rule #2 You now have to “tag” at least five people and encourage them to participate so that this thing spreads like a virus. Remember, though, that not everyone’s into these kinds of things, so don’t be upset if they don’t participate. Just simply replace your tag. Remember to tag blogs only and no pornographic ones as we do want to keep the integrity as a blogging community. TIP: Tag your frequent EntreCard droppers via its messaging system.

Tagging: abii, charity, herschelle, jem and martin, =)

it's Sunday!

2008-03-08T21:31:00.000-08:00

what a week! er... right now, i developed some sort of fondness to pajamas,=p yeah, yung gigantic pantal on my legs is still here, but not for long, may 'pahid-pahid gamot' (yan ang tawag ni nanay sa ointment) na ako, so for awhile, i have to protect it, kaya kailangan laging covered siya, pag nairita kasi can't help but scratch it, pero bawal kasi lalo syang maiirritate, hay! hindi ko alam kung saan ko siya nakuha pero sabi ni nanay nung 3 yrs. old daw ako unang nagkaroon nun, init daw ang dahilan sabi ni doc. and because of this, di ako masyado makalabas ng bahay and, iritable ako madalas, hehe! =)
and for the past week wala akong ibang ginawa kundi ayusin si bloggie, at kumain ng ice cream, watch House season 1 & 2, and i'll be back to my job hunting mode pag nawala na si 'allergy'.
Do you guys know any resort or something?hehe, the barkada is planning to have a summer outing when school is over at wala pa kaming mapuntahan. Sawa na kasi sila sa Cavite, ;)
Anyways, that's it for now, and gumagana na si comment section! yehey!lab yu ol! =p

can't think...

2008-03-05T23:32:00.000-08:00

hay...
di ako makapag-isip ngayon,
kasi...
hay...
hindi ko pa matype yung message,
ang gara,
tawagin daw ba akong sumpa?!
ayoko na,
nasira na araw ko...

FINALLY!

2008-03-03T23:44:00.000-08:00

i have my very own design sa bloggie ko!
yehey!
so now, yep, hindi na ako magpapapalit palit ng design ng blog,
liked it??
=)

(and by the way, meyrong error yung header ko, kung nabasa nyo nakalagay dun 'part if this society' dapat po 'OF' yun, ngeyon ko lang napansin, haha, i'll edit it soon, sakit na eyes ko eh...)

kisses! ;p

ang gara ng feeling...

2008-03-02T02:40:00.000-08:00

an incident happened kanina lang,
hindi ko alam kung anu ba dapat kong maramdaman,
i feel so sorry pero wala naman akong ginagawa,
masakit lang, kasi may taong nasaktan at umiiyak dahil sa isang
bagay na wala namang katotohanan,
for you girl, i know it hurts, pero walang katothanan yun,
hindi ko alam kung anu ba ang tamang gawin,
all i know is, mahal ka nya, i know kasi naikwento nya,
goodluck to both of you... =)

what made my day,

2008-02-25T21:11:00.000-08:00

kahapon kasi, halos umapoy na ng phone ko sa dami ng text!(magtext ba naman ang 6 mong kaibigan na puro gm, ewan ko na lang!)pero what made my day is nung nagsubside na yung gm mode ng mga kaibigan ko at konti na lang yung nagtext, at dun nagpop-out ang most depressing text ever made in my entire life!damn...It was a text about a friend na may mataas na pride telling the other friend that everything is my fault, ako may kasalanan, ako may mali, ako may pagkukulang, ako...ako... that is so full of ****! sorry for the term my dear readers pero nakakainis lang, i know posibleng mabasa mo ito friend:

to you my friend(an open letter),
since you don't want to talk to me kahit ako na
yung nagmamakaawa, k...fine...you said na kung magkaayos man tayo eh walang
magbabago sa way of pakikitungo ko sa'yo, that's what you think, i hope you
remember na ikaw ang unang tumalikod saken, at ikaw rin ang unang lumayo,pinili
ko lang na dumistansya dahil naramdaman ko naman na mas pinaniniwalaan mo "sila"
kesa saken, mas gusto mo "silang" kaibigan kesa saken, pinilit kong maging close
tayo but you closed your heart and ears to me. Remember when R and I broke up
and you were there and you did nothing, nakita ko kung pano mo ako tinignan, at
sana naramdaman mo yung selos na naramdaman ko, yung selos na yon ay hindi para
sa'yo, nagselos ako nun dahil mas pinili mong samahan sya kesa sakin na
naghintay na kausapin mo, i badly needed a shoulder that time, pero naintindihan
ko ulet, he is your close friend, mas close kayo kesa saken, even though we call
each other bes. You never believed in me, kaya tinanggap ko yun, tanggap na
tanggap...i hope when you get to read this, magalit ka, and then kausapin mo ko,
kasi mas gusto ko na awayin mo ako, kesa yung hindi mo ako kinakausap, you
should have seen how depressed i was when you decided to end our friendship, i
was still thankful though, coz you made me realize how important you are to my
life, i still cherish you, and love you,take care!

well, medyo natatawa ako kasi yung letter medyo galit sa umpisa tapos biglang nag lie low, haha,=P

anyways, share ko na din that i was really happy din kahapon kasi nun lang ulit nagkasaby-sabay na magtext yung mga bes ko, it's been a long time na din since we did that, and i missed it so much! nagpaplano ulit kami ng outing and sana this time matuloy na talaga, kasi sawa na ko sa villa ocampo,hahaha, chos! kahit saan pa yan basta kasama ko sila masaya na yun, i can't wait!I love you mga bes! wag na tayo magaway, bati bati na ha?! =)

ang sad ng life!

2008-02-24T19:13:00.000-08:00

mga bes!
sana hindi lang hanggang dito!
naiinis ako sa inyo,
alam nyo bang kayo ang dahilan kung bakit hindi agad ako sumuko sa laban ko nung college!
mahal ko kayo, sobra!
okey!
naiintindihan nyo ba yon?!
hay...
:'c

just a figment of (stupid)imagination...

2008-02-20T23:51:00.000-08:00

well, it's been awhile since i last entered an entry..haha, natawa ako, la lang, kasi trip ko rin magsulat ngayon since i have something to rave/rant about. hehehe...
so, here goes,
i kind of joined a communtiy over the net. Got to talk to interact with other people, and shared some ideas. Until i bumped to a girl, kilala nya kasi yung kilala ko so it started like "uy, ikaw pala si..." then nagtataka lang ako, kasi parang may somthing na hindi tama. Hanggang sa nakausap ko si girlaloo sa ym and told me everything she knows coz i asked her! The "teorya" shocked me! I wanted to scream, i was a bit angry and depressed. Sad should I say... I am just a figment of a guys imagination, can you believe that?! well, sorry to say but i'm off to prove that I am real!
hehe, di ako kagandahan pero kaya kong patunayan na I exist!
My entry is more of a rave, hehe, okey lang, at least i get to meet people who still trust me!
Salamat girlaloo, soulmate, tawa, adik o kung nau pa man tawag ko sa'yo!

sari-sari (2)

2008-02-07T23:13:00.000-08:00

i recently watched a tv documentary, it had a catchy title, "the 36-pesos challenge". The reporter dared filipinos from diffrent aspects of life, a teacher, a jeepney driver a PR consultant and a congressman. They are on a challenge of living a day with only 36 pesos at hand.

Noong 2004, lumabas sa pag-aaral ng National
Statistical Coordination Board na 36 na piso ang poverty threshold sa Pilipinas.
Ibig sabihin, kung ang isang Pilipino ay may P36 sa isang araw, hindi na siya
mapabibilang sa mga mahihirap.

kakagulat noh? so napaisip ako bigla, magkano ba ang nagagastos ko sa isang buong araw? kung iisispin ko, nung panahon na napasok pa ako sa school, 40 ang pamasahe ko mula sa bahay papunta sa school, papunta pa lang yan... kung 36 pesos lang, hindi na ako makakauwi, kulang pa ang pamasahe ko. Ikaw, sa palagay mo ba, kasya ang 36-pesos para sa isang buong araw?

walang-wala...

2008-01-31T00:26:00.000-08:00

kind of hard!

online posers really pisses me off!
hay...
if i could just strangle them to death, hehe,
btw,
a new, PERSONALISED theme will be coming so, pagtiyagaan muna itech! kaloka!

i hope that...

2008-01-23T22:21:00.000-08:00

you guys will always be there. i might not be with you always sa mga gimik, trips and everything kasi i'm trying to figure out everything pa, you all know that my future isn't as sure as what you guys have now, and i'm on the verge of breaking down, haha. Really. Well, i am not saying this as an excuse for not being there, this will only serve as my explanation to your why's about me. Hindi ko rin naman masabi sa inyo thru text, kasi enjoy naman ako texting with you guys, haha! You make me smile pa naman, and laugh, (bes, yung lotto ah! =P). Malamang nasa villa ocampo na naman tayo sa summer!hahaha, pwede rin naman sa volet's resort, kung kaya nyo? Saka na yung Baguio, kapag may work na lahat! sheesh! i am missing you all na talaga...

sari sari store...

2008-01-21T22:04:00.000-08:00

It was not that long ago when i still know what i want tapos biglang...wala na, parang i lost ny identity because of what i did when i was in college. I screwed up, yeah, and so? I learned a lot from it, as in. Rule number 1, never trust anyone that you meet just an hour ago. Magaling silang kumilatis ng tao, di ko alam pero siguro ganun nga, hehe, gulo ko! Just double check everything, you might be trusting people who are certified *&%$#@! if you know what i mean... never trust anyone else too much, ..

pero nagpapasalamat pa rin ako sa kanila, kung hindi dahil sa kanila, hindi ko siguro malalaman kung ano talaga ang nais ko sa buhay, hehe, i am aiming to be someone sucessful, but what matters most is that you become a stronger person because you learn from mistakes, pagkakamali mo man o ng ibang tao.

Nabubuhay kasi tayo sa mundo na naghahanap ng perpektong buhay na dapat gayahin o kay abutin, pero dapat din nating malaman na lahat ng tao na ang pagiging perpekto ay imposible. Lahat nagkakamali, lahat nadadapa, pero dapat bumangon!wow! hehe, kung sa buhay no, nakamali ka, it means tao ka, kung nasaktan ka kasi tao ka, kung nakasakit ka, kasi tao ka. Tao ka, kasi kung perpekto tayo, walang thrill ang buhay, we will all live the same way everyday. Hindi ba boring yun?

Basta masarap mabuhay... =)

if ever...

2008-01-13T22:26:00.000-08:00

if ever you are wondering why i have averytulip as my blog name above, it was an accident. hehe, Dapat kasi averil's tulip yan, kaya lang, di ko natype yung "s". why tulip? aside from it is my favorite flower, eto ang story...
usually kasi i use april's thoughts, or april's corner, pero i want new kaya nagbrain storm ako, i researched my name nakita ko that aside from april, it could be avril or averil derived from avery means blossoms. Then tulip, parang trip ko lang i-change yung thoughts to tulip diba? it can mean blossoms of tulip. ang taray diba?, haha, so yun muna kwento ko muna ngayon, kasi ayusin naten ang blog noh?

to anyone, pano ba magpersonalize ng siggy dito?
haha, if anyone knows comment nyo na lang,
thank you!

well, well, well...

2008-01-13T00:59:00.000-08:00

since this is my first post dito sa blog kong ahm... ewan ko, hehe, i will talk as if i am talking to you. Makes sense?haha, wala pa kasi akong magawa sa ngayon, kind of distracted by the thoughts of my friend who decided to end our friendship just like that. It hurts like crazy, you know? Parang nakipagbreak saken ang boyfriend ko na mahal na mahal ko, or, mas malala pa dun. Ngayon, sabi nila hayaan ko daw muna para makapag-isip, but then i keep on sending her messages saying sorry coz i know it's my fault. Di ko kasi napaparamdam sa kanya na mahalaga din sya sakin. yun lang muna...